this new year...

the end of 2008 and this beginning of 2009 really has me thinking about life and jewelry and making it all work.
knowing that i will have boy #2 in june of this year has me semi-paniced to spend as much time with parker before the addition and before he starts school. i find myself questioning many minutes of the day and so many activities that we choose to do to make sure that we are able to have the most fun. he has been my sidekick for almost 5 years and i am not sure what it will be like to step into the world without his excitement and enthusiasm every second of the day.
knowing that i will have boy #2 right when i would have had my days to myself has me really questioning what i really want out of creating jewelry and i am not sure i have this figured out yet, but,
* i know that i will not stop creating
* i know that i do not want to focus on production work
* i know that i need the association of people in the art community (they seem to "get" me best)
* i know that i need to participate in shows, but that this will become much more difficult
* i know that i need to continue to push myself professionally (apply, apply, apply and face uncomfortable rejection)
the vagueness of this knowledge really doesn't leave me with a real plan or a specific goal. so, i suppose that i must continue to think about all of these things and then get focused and organized so i can work on my priorities and not get sidetracked.